Tasuku-san!
I'm scared. That I will disappear from this world,
or that I might forget everything. With just myself, I don't know what to do.
If there is only one thing in this world I want to treasure,
then for the sake that important something, I want to live on.
That's what I think.
That's why, I wanted to go to Tokyo.
My wife should have come for an inspection already.
But she hasn't come yet? I'm not undergoing the surgery.
I have things that I must not forget.
For the sake of those important things,
I want to live on.
Yo! Sorry.
Onii-san. We've been waiting!
I will be in your care. You can have this if you like.
This is sakura? It's the sakura that blooms in winter.
Ohh.
Why haven't you come for the checkup yet?
Welcome back.
I have taken the re-examination already.
What do you mean? I went to another hospital to take it.
The result has been out already too.
They said the surgery is going to be very difficult.
Even if it can be done,
there's a possibility that I will lose all my memory. Why did you have your checkup at another hospital?
Why did you?
As I thought, you are that kind of person aren't you?
Rather than worrying about my health,
you care more about why I went to another hospital to have my checkup right?
I have already decided.
I'm not having the surgery.
If I insist on that decision at your hospital,
I might cause you trouble. That was why.
I will continue with my treatment at the university hospital.
But for Kotone's sake,
I want to try my best until I reach my limit to not get hospitalized.
Don't tell Kotone anything yet... Don't you play with me!
Such a thing, you think you can do whatever you like? Huh?
Why can't I? You are my wife.
But
my life doesn't belong to you.
Before the situation becomes like this,
I should have told you about it. But...
until the very end,
I don't want regret anything.
Are you serious? Yeah.
He even went so far as coming to Yamagata?
I can't imagine someone who seems as nice as the Director can do such a thing.
Maybe he was really angry.
But you see. No matter how angry he was, throwing money into people's face like that. Isn't it terrible?
I know what you mean.
But somehow that's not the impression he gives.
I...
after meeting him, I came to understand something.
(I see. You want money huh? Monami-san,
why she was frightened to retrieve her memory back then,
why she went to Yamagata alone without telling her family too.
She has a terrible illness.
but she can't rely on her own family. ªI think she must be very disheartened.
Even with my power, I can't doing anything to help either.
When she said she would not undergo the surgery, to you,
it's a harsh decision too right?
But because it is Monami-san's final decision.
Onii-san...
I just
want her to live the way she wants.
For that sake, I want to do what I can.
I think of nothing else but that.
Even though it's sad,
having someone who thinks only this
is something to be happy about right?
Sorry for being over-emotional yesterday.
I'm reflecting on it.
Ah no. I have
something important to tell you.
What is it?
When I
took a look at your MRI scans at the hospital in Yamagata,
I didn't feel that the surgery would be hard at all.
Eh?
If I am the one to operate, it will be 100% successful.
I think the risk of you losing your memory isn't high either.
It's better
if you go to our family hospital to have another inspection.
But...
the doctor at that university hospital said that the operation will be hard.
Nowadays,
it's common sense to hear a second opinion.
I...
don't want to lose you. As my wife too,
as Kotone's mother too,
you are irreplaceable.
Please.
Come to our hospital today.
Have one more inspection.
You are the one who said you didn't want to regret.
That's why, let's put all our effort to do what we can.
Okay?
Yes.
The thought that I might be able to survive
made my heart waver.
Yes. I can start from today. Is it really so?
I will go for the interview. Thank you very much.
I just plunged myself into the darkness
hoping to find a ray of hope in its midst.
Thanks for the other day.
By no means I could have thought that I would meet you in Tokyo like this.
Why are you here... Regarding my wife,
I have something to talk to you. Eh?
That shadow has swallowed you completely,
and without knowing that, I was inside it.
Does that mean, if she has the operation, she will be cured?
Today, she will be having a re-examination.
Even though she has fears,
I have every confidence.
However, to tell you the truth,
it's not like I want to perform the operation for her by all means.
Eh? No matter what I say, if she still refuses,
I think it's fine not to have it.
What do you mean to say?
She sneaked out to repeatedly meet
a man like you.
That sort of mother who betrays her whole family,
even if she lives,
it's not gonna do my daughter any good.
Because the person that is important to me
is only my daughter.
Although, making my daughter become motherless
is not something I will endure.
That's why, I have come here to see you.
From now on, if
you promise not to see my wife
or contact her
and erase all memories about my wife,
I will perform the operation and save her.
Do you understand what I am saying?
What is holding my wife's life
is your moral principle.
Translated and timed by yuizaki_libra Special thanks to furransu.
Why don't we begin?
Yes.
If you promise to erase all memories about my wife,
I will perform the operation and save her.
Inaba Hajime-kun right? The medical intern?
Yes.
You are Inaba Tasuku's younger brother right?
When my wife was in Yamagata, your brother took great care of her.
Is that right?
It seems that your brother and you are living together right?
Yes.
Isn't that nice?
I don't have any siblings so I'm envious of you.
Then, send my regards to your brother.
Excuse me.
You seem quite excellent yourself.
I will hold high expectations.
Don't get involved in senseless things.
Be careful.
Monami-san.
Good afternoon.
Sorry. I couldn't buy sakura for you.
Me too. Sorry for asking you absurd things. Come to think of that,
I was shocked when I heard you collapsed.
Are you alright now?
Yeah...
By any chance, Monami-san.
you're ill?
Actually,
Yeah?
In my brain, they discovered that there is this tumor.
Tumor? But there's nothing to worry about.
I was told that it can be cured.
I don't get it at all. How can I have that kind of illness?
But if it's a brain-related illness, the Director is an expert at it.
Aren't you reassured?
However,
The one facing this illness is me.
I can't just count on my husband.
Monami-san.
You seem a little different.
Really? Somehow...
I feel that you've become stronger.
So up until now, you have been a glass craftsman in Yamagata huh?
Yes. What caused you to go to Tokyo?
There's something... Well doesn't matter.
Your job here is quite heavy, but work hard.
Please be kind to me.
Mom, I want to attend an Arts college.
Arts College? Isn't that good? But,
I have to become a doctor right?
Eh? Because, Obaa-chan always said
that I have to become a wonderful doctor like Dad, and then succeed him as Head of the hospital.
It's fine for Kotone to choose to walk on whichever path you like.
Really? Of course.
Because it's important that you live your life the way you want it.
I got it. Then, Mom will be my ally won't you?
You can't depend on me.
It's your own life. After you find something you want to do,
you have to try your best, have a job,
rely on yourself.
Isn't it stil tool early to talk about that?
That's right.
But someday I want you to remember it.
"Ah! Mom told me that last time. "
Ok ok. Understood.
Please. Yes.
I'm scared. That I will disappear from this world,
or that I might forget everything.
Is the food done? Hey don't stop. Continue washing, you idiot!
Excuse me.
I'm back. You're late, Onii-chan. Where did you go?
I have found a part-time job at a bar.
Sorry. I didn't tell you.
Did something happen? Onii-chan, you contacted Monami-san right?
No... Why?
Today, all of a sudden, my Director told me that his wife was in your care.
Even though he's never said a word to me before.
Eh? Moreover, he even knew that we're living together.
Don't you think this is bad?
Someone like our Director of course won't do such a thing to Hajime-chan.
You're worrying too much.
It's none of your business so you can be that carefree. What is none of my business?
Sorry. Why are you apologizing?
Really sorry. It's my fault. Onii-san...
Don't apologize now. If you are that apologetic, don't come to Tokyo in the first place.
Hajime-chan!
Ahh~ Damn it!
Seriously, he's such a kid.
Whenever there's a fight, he will leave like this.
Go to convenience store, cool his head down, then come back.
Do you want some coffee?
Hajime-chan, the gold medal you made for him,
he still has it until now you know? Huh?
When he was small, whenever he got 100 points for his test, you would make him one right?
Ohh.
Because he wanted it, he studied with all his might for it.
It's just colored paper.
Whenever he gets drunk, he will always say.
"He only let him move out when I got into university. For Onii-chan's sake too,
I have to become a great doctor. " Now at the hospital,
he's trying his very best. That's why, he might be a little cautious about the Director.
I understand that too.
At this age, I should know better. But I still make people around me worry, causing them trouble.
What am I even doing?
Nevertheless,
Nevertheless, I can't just stand there not doing anything.
Isn't that fine?
You don't need to mind whether you bring trouble or whatnot
Hajime-chan and I, we both
understand your feelings.
Thank you.
Beside, at the moment, to Monami-san
isn't your presence here her relief?
I have that feeling.
That's why, I hope you can stay by her side.
It was just as I concluded.
If I'm the one who performs the operation, you will possibly be cured.
I will?
Of course it's no simple operation.
The risk of losing your memory is certainly not zero either.
However,
it's surely not high either.
So are you gonna have the surgery?
Why are you still hesitating?
The possibility that I will lose my memory,
is not completely taken off the table right?
Don't tell me...
you're talking about that man?
I'm not.
I'm talking about Kotone.
There are still things that I have to do for her.
That's why too.
That's why I'm asking you to have the operation.
For Kotone's sake too.
I will definitely make the operation a success.
I will show you that
I can cure you.
The surgery should be as early as possible.
Why don't you get prepared to get hospitalized in 2 or 3 days?
I will be saved.
I'm so sorry. Onii-san. Although you cooked, you even tidy up for us too.
No, this is the least I can do. But don't worry too much about us, just make yourself at home.
Right? Hajime-chan?
Yea. Then, I'm going.
I'm going.
Have a safe trip.
You husband who is also a brain surgeon, by any chance,
is Ishikawa Koichi-sensei right? Yes.
He's the leading doctor isn't he?
Bearing in mind the possibility that memory defect will be incurred,
I won't change my opinion that this is an exceptionally difficult operation.
However, if it's Ishikawa-sensei,
I can't deny that there is a high probability that it will be a success.
Is that right?
When you are faced with an illness, your family's support is very crucial.
I do think that believing in your husband who is a doctor, and leaving the rest to him
is the best option we can have now.
Yes.
If you promise to erase all memories about my wife,
I will perform the operation and save her.
Yes. This is Inaba.
Tasuku-san? Do you
have time today?
Yes.
Sorry. Calling you out to a place like this.
Not at all. I wanted to come here too.
Actually this is my first time coming here.
Eh? Is that so?
To attend junior college, I left Nagano and moved here.
After that, I've been in Tokyo ever since.
My family always thought of coming here. Now I'm at this age and we never did.
Somehow, in just a blink of an eye,
I got married
had my daughter,
chased after my daily routine.
And just like that, here I am.
As it was, I wanted to live my fullest.
But there are still so many things I want to do.
Or maybe I could have led
a little different lifestyle.
Even with my struggling self.
Yes.
My husband said
if he's the one who performs the surgery
the possibility that I can be cured without losing my memory is high.
If there is a chance I can survive,
I want to live on.
But
the risk of complete memory loss
is not zero.
I'm wavering.
Even though I decided once not to have the operation.
That's natural.
It's only natural that you're hesitating.
Only when Tasuku-san is by my side
I feel reassured.
I'm glad that we went up Tokyo Tower.
I can make more memories with Tasuku-san.
And I have one less regret too.
Me too.
I'm glad that we came here.
Somehow it's so dear.
This world
that I've been living in.
A clown! A clown!
Amazing.
Yay! Ouch! That hurts!
Everyone, thank you very much.
Whenever I do normal things like this,
there are moments I can just
easily forget all the problems I'm having.
It is as if, days that are without problems like this one,
from now on, will continue forever.
The fact that I might disappear,
doesn't feel like a reality at all.
Yet, soon
"Ahh it's gonna be different!"
Then I'll remind myself that
one year from now, I might not
even be here anymore.
Laughing my heart out,
things like happiness,
or moments I enjoy myself
are things that absolutely can't be bought with money,
I realized that now.
Monami-san?
Monami-san!
Are you alright? Monami-san!
I caused you trouble again didn't I?
No. Not at all.
I might
reach my limit soon.
But it was really fun today.
Thank you.
Me too.
Mom!
Kotone...
Are you okay? I'm fine.
I just had a little anemia. When I heard the voice message
from the hospital saying that you were carried here, I was so shocked.
Sorry. Making you worry for me.
I have called Dad already, but he was in the middle of an operation.
It's ok, i'm alright now.
Mom, who's that man?
Umm, excuse me.
You're the one who called the ambulance for Mom and accompanied her here?
Oh.. yeah.
Thank you very much.
It's nothing.
Excuse me.
Is Mom feeling alright? Yeah. She seems fine now.
The man who called the ambulance for Mom was very nice.
He even accompanied Mom here. How does he look?
He looks very kind.
Then I'm going to stay here with Mom.
I'm counting on you.
I'm sorry I was late. Really, you've only started and you're late already?
If next time you're like this again, I will have you quit.
I'm truly sorry.
Thanks.
I will prepare dinner soon. Today I will cook.
Eh? I can make curry.
Mom, you go to rest. I'm fine.
I can cook dinner. It's okay.
The other day, you collapsed because of anemia. Isn't your health deteriorating?
Perhaps... why don't you take up exercising?
Like going to sports club or something.
Yeah.
If Mom is not well, I'll be in trouble.
Because I can't make anything else except curry.
That's right.
Monami-san is so unfortunate.
Well, personally
I'm happy that the day I can be with you will come soon.
But she's a strong person right?
It I were in her shoes, I could have become more despaired.
That sort of strenth, maybe there's someone supporting her.
Why don't you give her to him?
I
don't think you can win against him.
Just my intuition.
Defeating that man to me, it's just a matter of time.
Besides,
I'm a brain surgeon.
That has
no relevance here hasn't it? Great relevance.
That's painful... As long as
As long as she is having the operation.
I was just joking.
If there is a chance I can survive, I want to live on.
What is holding my wife's life
is your moral principle.
I'm digging in.
Yuck!
No such thing. It tastes good.
It's ok, don't force yourself. Why did it fail, I wonder?
That's so strange. It was good when I cooked it in school.
How about I write recipes of some dishes for Koto-chan?
Really? Uhm.
Then you must make sure to include hamburger and stew okay?
Got it.
With Mom's recipes, I will cook you scrumptious dishes.
I'm looking forward to it.
Things like happiness, or moments I enjoy myself
are things that absolutely can't be bought with money.
Good work.
I'm back.
Where's Anna? She slept already? Yeah.
Seems that you're working your butt off too. Until this late. Today I was flooded with work.
Haven't eaten dinner yet.
I'll cook you some food.
You will?
Yummy~
Really? Come to think of it, when I took the entrance examination too,
you always made me supper.
I don't really remember.
Since Mom was always not home, and she didn't cook either.
You prepared my lunch box too. Lunch box was hard to make.
It was brown, and was super simple-looking.
It was unexpectedly tasty. "Unexpectedly"? You're so rude.
I didn't go off track, and got to where I am,
all thanks to that brown lunch box and the gold medal you gave me.
That gold medal? Do you you still remember?
I remember. I heard from Anna-chan that you still keep it until now.
Sometimes, I just look at it.
I see.
If I can become a doctor,
it's actually all because of you. What are you talking about?
Hajime.
Is it true that
your Director has really great skills?
He's great.
Patients nationwide all come here to ask him to perform their operations
I see.
Onii-chan.. Hmm?
I..
know that you are trying your hardest to help her.
You gave up your own previous life and came to Tokyo.
Nonetheless, I'm sorry to say this. But you can't save her life.
As a doctor, I think she should have the surgery.
For the sake of her family too.
Well of course, my Director might have a bad personality.
It's no doubt that he has got amazing skills.
Just leave the rest to him.
And then,
this time, think about your own happiness.
Umm.
Then next time, I will make you a gold medal.
Thanks for that.
If you promise to erase all memories about my wife,
I will perform the operation and save her.
Have a safe trip. Be careful of the traffic.
Then I'm going. See you later. See you later.
In order not to make Kotone worry about your surgery,
I will explain it clearly to her.
You too, please think of your topmost priority.
I know that I must decide but...
Just
have faith in me.
See you later.
Hello?
Monami-san.
Can we meet for a while?
I have something important to tell you.
Such good weather isn't it?
You're right.
What's the important thing you wanted to tell me?
It's about the surgery.
I have been thinking all this while.
Yes?
As I thought,
it's better if you have it.
Of course it's discouraging that you might end up losing your memory,
I understand your anxiety.
I really understand.
But if the chance of the operation being successful is high,
then maybe you should have it.
Because to your daughter,
You are someone she can't live without.
Maybe I should have it.
That's what I've been thinking too.
Since Tasuku-san has said that,
it's like I have been freed from many things.
Thank you.
I
will have the operation.
It's gonna be fine.
It will definitely be a success.
Yes.
Even until now, I can still recall clearly
the place Tasuku-san came to my rescue.
The scenery on that hill.
The view there was not only beautiful, but also,
that was the place Tasuku-san
told me "Everything's fine."
I immediately felt at ease.
Even though I didn't know who I was then,
I could forget all of my anxiety and pain.
For a short moment, I felt as if I was freed.
That sakura tree
is still enduring the chilliness of winter isn't it?
Yes it is.
Tasuku-san.
Yes?
If the operation goes well,
and I can come back without losing my memory.
I
would like to one day go to see that sakura that blooms in winter
together with you, Tasuku-san.
Let's see it
together.
It's a promise.
Yes.
I will call you another time.
I'll be waiting.
If the operation goes well, and I can come back without losing my memory.
I would like to one day go to see that sakura that blooms in winter together with you, Tasuku-san.
Excuse me. My name is Inaba.
I would like to meet the Director.
I just plunged myself into the darkness
hoping to find a ray of hope in its midst.
Please excuse me.
I also thought it was about time you came here.
Please save
Monami-san.
Please save her.
Do you remember
that promise?
I will not see
Monami-san again.
That shadow
has swallowed you completely,
and without knowing that, I was inside it.
I believed that
if I live, there will come a day I can meet you again.
Thank you very much. If you can perform the operation for her,
it would be the best treatment we can get. However,
It must be harsh for you too. Yeah...
I hope my wife will survive this by all means.
even if she loses her memory.